Eating habits

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Liittynyt: 29.4.2020
Viimeksi paikalla: 15.6.2020 19:45

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16.5.2000

 

I wish i wouldn’t spend my days.

Locked in a cage,

Obsessing over bread when instead i could eat.

Defeat the hunger in me.

It’s not in me it is me.

 

I will feed.

My soul as much as my stomach.

I won’t vomit for a stupid birthday cake and i will make another one.

I will have another one thanks for asking.

Hours go passing.

In the bathroom I am sitting once more.

Sitting, asking myself why can’t I just eat without obsessing over a piece of candy.

 

Isn’t it so dandy that a lion would eat whatever it needs and I will suppress my need not to survive but to be pretty.

As if today that was not the same thing.

As if today everything wasn’t about looks or how someone cooks and what do they eat and fullfill your need to be just like them.

 

Eat just like them,

Dress like them,

Workout like them and soon you will most likely, Probably, be like them, doesn’t that sound lovely?

Oh how lonely it is to be pretty and lovely.

 

Preaching about self respect, 

sugar is below me,

And I am above it.

I have survived it.

Conquered it.

I have mastered the plan of not eating it.

Binging it,

Leaving it.

Coming back for more and more and swearing once more this is the last time.

 

But I’m fine.

Because just like that lion in a maze or bird in a cage I survive.

So what if I do it by obsessing over bread and instead of eating what I want I will look,

how I want to look in jeans.

I will look good, in those jeans.

I will look equally skinny and curvy in

Those lightwashed jeans.

I will look original and naturally beautiful,

In those goddamn jeans.

Don’t you get it?

Those jeans are me.

 

Look at me.

Am screaming.

For your attention.

 

 

 

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