The Life I Could Have Had

This feeling inside me
is like an iron grasp
around the heart of mine.
And for air I gasp
It hurts and won't heal.
It feels all too real.

I just want to feel
the joy of life.
But it holds me like steel.
It won't go away without a fight.

I want to cry 'till no tears come.
I am so broken and numb.
There is nowhere left to go
No where to escape,
this feel of rape

I want to fly away
To a place over the sea.
To find my way,
and try to flee.
Not to be sad,
of the life I could have had.