”Northern lights!” one of the exchange students shouted from the hallway, causing an immidiate reaction in the others. Everyone stood up and rushed outside like little children. I stayed in the living room with Adam. He made himself more comfortable on the couch and turned smiling towards me. I met his eyes and even though I was smiling too, my heart was aching. There wasn't that much time left for us and, instead of days, I could now count the hours to his departure. I stroked his hair and tried not to look sad; he wouldn't have liked that. ”Not that interested in northern lights anymore, huh?” I asked with a crooked smile on my face. ”Nah, I prefer you”, he answered and leaned over to give me a kiss. We sat in silence for a moment, looking at each other's faces absent-mindedly. Words weren't necessary – we both knew what the other was thinking. Three months had gone by fast and now it was time to say goodbye. I heaved a sigh and he touched my cheek gently. ”Come on, let's go and see what all the fuss was about.”
We dragged ourselves to the front yard and looked up in the sky. I almost couldn't believe my eyes: there they were, the most beautiful northern lights I had ever seen in my life. And considering my 21 years in Lapland, it was much. We all were quietly staring at the smooth movement of the huge, green lights through the black space. ”They look so beautiful.” ”Yeah, talking about a proper goodbye present from Finland”, someone noted. I laughed and leaned against Adam's warm chest. I knew that it would probably be the last evening with him ever, and I wanted to make the most of it. We liked each other a lot, that was clear, but we weren't crazy in love. The time had been too short for that and I think we both knew that our relationship would be nothing more than an Erasmus-romance. Still, I had become very attached to him during the last month and our separation wasn't an easy thing to accept.
Slowly the magical light phenomenon faded out and the others returned inside. I was left behind with Adam, and we stayed under the starry sky for a moment. ”Wow, that was amazing”, he whispered, ”I could have watched them forever.” I nodded. ”But then they wouldn't be so special. When they last only a few minutes, the experience feels always unique.” I hesitated a bit before continuing: ”And that is exactly how I would like you to remember me.” Adam looked a bit confused so I explained: ”You cannot possess me or take me home with you and you might never see me again, just like the northern lights. But now you know that I exist and you will always have me in your heart.” I heard a faint ”aww” coming from his mouth, and then he grabbed me into a big hug. ”Do you have any idea how sugary you just sounded?” he was smirking. ”HEY!” I broke away from his hold and punched him playfully in the arm. ”Ok, ok. You can be my own northern light”, he said and kissed me softly. ”And maybe”, he said, ”maybe one day, I will come back for you.” I looked at him with a smile on my face, and I knew that we understood each other perfectly.
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