Nimetön

Sleepin’ on the clouds
Sailin’ around the world.
Only teddybear is tugged under my arm.

Whiteness.
Silence.

Mercy surrounds me like warm blood in my veins.
But I don’t feel the peace of mind at all.
But I don’t find the harmony within this Paradise.

All the emotions are dancin’ like angels.
Freedom is far away from here.

I see the Sun.
I feel the Moon.
Stars.
And Planets.
All are lookin’ down at me.
All are above me.
All are capable to punish me.

I reach out to touch the Earthly grey ground.
The streets are white too.
And cold.

I’m runnin’ through this dream like reality.
Wanderin’ like fairies do.

I see the colours.
I feel the beautifulness.
But devil’s huntin’ me.
But empty darkness is tryin’ to tie me up.

I feel pain.
I see blood.
Mortal death of mine.
It knocked on the forest’s door.
And I die in another world’s arms.
In Nature Mother’s heart.
Unspoken tear trails down my cheek to its destiny, to its death.
“thank you”

Unknown force rises me up from my infinite sleep.
To the Hell.
To the Paradise.
To new and old existent.
To born as new innocent soul.

Big gates.
Big golden gates.
You can’t see where they end and from where they start.
Now they opens only for me though.
To take me into light.
Into absolute nothingness.
Into promised afterlife.
Into care.
“goodbye”

Embracin’ all of it.
I jump.
I flee.
In the wind.

I hear myself to whisper: “take care of children of yours. Take care of the happy ones and the suffering mostly. They all needs you to tell that someday they’ll be as loved as I am now”

I’m the honest word in your conscience.
But you won’t say me.
I’m your shadow which won’t leave you.
But you think I’m paid trick.
I’m your guardian angel.
I’m dead.
I’m spirit.

Lost and forgotten.
For good.
“goodbye”