Floating in the center of the ocean
All my life I've longed for
I didn't know what but on voyage I was
Neverending, often mislead quest made of the flow of consciousness
Inside, there was waves and eruptions, the echoes seen outside always only the top of the mountain
The mountain too tall to climb and the road too heavy
Every step you took just another form of sweet, sweet pain - The lover you learned to worship like your image watching back from the stillness of shifting forms and shadows
There never was others really,
they were just playing side or support roles
- or the villains haunting you, all and everywhere,
the eyes watching you, seeing your mortal coil but not real you, your soul aching to burst
through your existence
And you were the Queen uncrowned
and without a glorious kingdom to rule over
- Just barren wastelands and smoking ashes of your grave, the time's passing a burden heavy like an event horizon you couldn't escape
You just never learn certain things
and that's the truth - always a painfull one, but it should be also freeing
You never were about those things seen valuable by most, and you always knew it
The world made sure you did, and your own nature
The ocean too wide and the waves too frequent
You just wanted to drown, but was forced to learn to swim.. but you weren't a creature of the sea and you could just float in the center of the silence of the ocean
And you just wanted to find a home but never believed
it could happen
to you
And the burden just grew as the years passed,
the weight of the life lived with worlds inside no one was able to see
- and you even didn't want to try, weary of it all, your crosses weighing like lead on your back
And the wall invisible between you and all the rest, even those closest to you were like from a different species entirely.. and still often are
And it felt like years took away all that was left from your childhood innocence
- but your wonder, they couldn't reach
And you still sang with your own language no one else could decipher, veiled in darkness and impossible quests maybe, but nonetheless
Your fire, the masses of the ocean couldn't suffocate
And you floated in silence of the universe, in the center of the sea of eternity
And above you all the stars of the Milky Way shining their light in perfect structure and order
- from your perspective, anyway
You loved to drown into the gravity of that silent vastness, the harmony of order
The familiarity of sweet, sweet nothing
- and the intensity of the contrasts, those massive emotions buried behind the fortress unpenetrable
- you drank them like a maniac in thirst when they were touching the surface of the ocean
The control you always lacked, following you to every single nightmare tormenting your rest
There was no balance, you always realized,
but - frankly - you didn't much care
And when you did, you didn't know how to change things and still it's hard to grasp why.. still, you often don't even want to
Love can coexist with pain and complexity
You found what you were looking for
He was the one to show you so many things
- his world a marvel and a riddle eternal, the purpose seen in the movement of planets and their gravity holding everything together
He wanted to know how everything worked
- and you wanted to know why, but really the mystery of it all made things more fascinating
There was also darkness matching your own,
but manifesting very differently - but not in all things and those things were hauntingly familiar
And those long nights of endless talks, how you came to the same problems from totally different angles but often still met in the same place
- And there was beautiful, so beautiful
The differences and similarities alike
You just didn't realize all those things which you should have appreciated or understood
But no one is perfect and you certainly aren't..
But you are still here, not unscathed but still here and breathing
Sometimes you just wish to be able to just breath, not think and feel anymore
It's like you have all your life constantly tried to swim... but in the end you can just float
And you are so tired to carry on, it's like a compulsion you just can't overcome
~*~
But the thing is
..He swims for you
I didn't know what but on voyage I was
Neverending, often mislead quest made of the flow of consciousness
Inside, there was waves and eruptions, the echoes seen outside always only the top of the mountain
The mountain too tall to climb and the road too heavy
Every step you took just another form of sweet, sweet pain - The lover you learned to worship like your image watching back from the stillness of shifting forms and shadows
There never was others really,
they were just playing side or support roles
- or the villains haunting you, all and everywhere,
the eyes watching you, seeing your mortal coil but not real you, your soul aching to burst
through your existence
And you were the Queen uncrowned
and without a glorious kingdom to rule over
- Just barren wastelands and smoking ashes of your grave, the time's passing a burden heavy like an event horizon you couldn't escape
You just never learn certain things
and that's the truth - always a painfull one, but it should be also freeing
You never were about those things seen valuable by most, and you always knew it
The world made sure you did, and your own nature
The ocean too wide and the waves too frequent
You just wanted to drown, but was forced to learn to swim.. but you weren't a creature of the sea and you could just float in the center of the silence of the ocean
And you just wanted to find a home but never believed
it could happen
to you
And the burden just grew as the years passed,
the weight of the life lived with worlds inside no one was able to see
- and you even didn't want to try, weary of it all, your crosses weighing like lead on your back
And the wall invisible between you and all the rest, even those closest to you were like from a different species entirely.. and still often are
And it felt like years took away all that was left from your childhood innocence
- but your wonder, they couldn't reach
Your fire, the masses of the ocean couldn't suffocate
And you floated in silence of the universe, in the center of the sea of eternity
And above you all the stars of the Milky Way shining their light in perfect structure and order
- from your perspective, anyway
You loved to drown into the gravity of that silent vastness, the harmony of order
The familiarity of sweet, sweet nothing
- and the intensity of the contrasts, those massive emotions buried behind the fortress unpenetrable
- you drank them like a maniac in thirst when they were touching the surface of the ocean
The control you always lacked, following you to every single nightmare tormenting your rest
There was no balance, you always realized,
but - frankly - you didn't much care
And when you did, you didn't know how to change things and still it's hard to grasp why.. still, you often don't even want to
Love can coexist with pain and complexity
You found what you were looking for
- your home
Your love..
Love like gravity of a star, more than you ever dreamed of
He was the one to show you so many things
- his world a marvel and a riddle eternal, the purpose seen in the movement of planets and their gravity holding everything together
He wanted to know how everything worked
- and you wanted to know why, but really the mystery of it all made things more fascinating
There was also darkness matching your own,
but manifesting very differently - but not in all things and those things were hauntingly familiar
And those long nights of endless talks, how you came to the same problems from totally different angles but often still met in the same place
- And there was beautiful, so beautiful
The differences and similarities alike
You just didn't realize all those things which you should have appreciated or understood
But no one is perfect and you certainly aren't..
But you are still here, not unscathed but still here and breathing
Sometimes you just wish to be able to just breath, not think and feel anymore
It's like you have all your life constantly tried to swim... but in the end you can just float
And you are so tired to carry on, it's like a compulsion you just can't overcome
~*~
But the thing is
..He swims for you
And you float for him..
oletus
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