Painful feelings

Just shoot me, rape me, hold me, love me, kiss me, kill me.
Because i'm just a dream, that fades away when you touch me.
I loved you so much, but you didn't even look at me.
You laughed at me, you killed me slowly inside.
I think i can't stand it anymore, i'm so weak, so afraid.
I hope you someday find your happiness.
And my best friend you must know, that i loved you so.
But this time you can't help me, you can't raise me.
From my despair, from my grave...